I'll be calling you tomorrow, Calysta

EMAIL:

Hey Mr.Tsutakawa--
I'm going to have to let the UW know my decision by Thursday the 28th
(two weeks). Memorial day weekend I'm going on a leadership retreat
and Tuesday through Thursday (the 26th-28th) I'll be on a marine trip
so I really need to decide by this Friday.
What my orchestra assignment is for next year is the determining
factor and I'm really wanting to stay at Garfield. If you would please
let me know my assignment as soon as you can, keeping in mind that I
have about five days to make my decision, I would really appreciate
it.

Thank you
Paloma

REPLY:

Let's talk in person tomorrow. I would love to have you stay at Garfield.

tsut

Good sign? I think so...

University of Washington

I love writing essays. Seriously, I always have.

I read the prompt, think it over for a couple days, know what I'm going to say, and then just write it out. Why is it that now, when it matters, and I'm applying to college, that I can't freaking write an essay. It's only five hundred words and yet I have no desire to write or idea about what my thesis is-- usually I have both.

My application to college is due on Thursday and I haven't written my essay. This feels wrong.

Time

There's not enough time in the day to practice my cello or paint.

Ever

Second Post (only about 20 minutes later)

So I had one of these before, it was a "Greatest Journal", when I was about ten or twelve and it turned out to be really angsty and stupid and middleschool-y... so I'm afraid that this one will turn out to be really bitchy and stupid and highschool-y but Calysta was pretty encouraging about this.

I guess I just have to try to write stuff and not worry about how dumb it is and then just not look over it again... ever. Because then I feel dumb. 

I'm already feeling dumb... how long will I last? I'm not really very good at this.

... the thing thats really intimidating about blogs or journals that are.. public is that they're so personal. Even if you're not saying anything outright personal, everything you say or write is a total reflection of who you are and what you're feeling and it scares me that I could just be thinking I'm writing some random stuff on this completely accessible world-wide-web page but my inner workings are actually completely exposed to anyone reading it...

At this point, Calysta is definitely the only person who will ever read this so I guess I should give a shout to her... I say that like I'm talking to people besides her... Hi Calysta... this is my first blog entry... here's my shout out to you for reading it!! (but I don't know how much shout outs are really worth if the shoutout-ee is the only one who hears it... oh god, nevermind)

P.S. Thanks for your entry :) It was really sweet.  XO

First Entry (from Oakland)

Calysta:  Well I showed Paloma my really cool blog and she thought it was awesome (duh) so she was inspired to make her own.  Enjoy it cause she's probably smarter than you and you'll probably learn a thing or two from her.  Peace.  I LOVE PALOMA.

P.S. I'm her cousin so don't hate cause I'll find out and get you!!